Goodbye my little Sous

I know you better then your family and you know me better then mine

I tell you everything as you tell me 

You have seen me at my worst and at my best 

As have i seen you 

We tell each other our hopes and aspirations

Of our past and future 

I know you 

As you know me 

I know your strengths and weaknesses 

I help you with both 

Your loves are mine 

And when you hate them so do i 

You know my heart when it is full or broken, empty 

You are always there for both 

To listen and to talk 

I encourage you to be better 

I push you to be the best 

I train you to replace me 

Without the desire just yet to leave you 

I know our time will end 

You don’t, well not yet

I miss the days when we aren’t together 

I call you on your days off

We talk about everyone 

The politics of our work 

Complaining about the pay 

The hours 

The good days and the bad

Today i have a thought

Its not the first time i have contemplated this thought 

I feel different today 

This thought is firm 

Strong and clear 

I don’t tell you this time

But you know 

I leave you for a minute 

I’m going to have a chat 

I do this almost everyday 

Today the chat is different 

I’m back at my station 

You can see it on my face 

I try not to show you but you can see 

My mind is made 

I feel empowered by my decision   

Relief even

You do not speak a word 

You pretend everything is fine 

But i know you 

I know you suspect what i have done 

I must keep this secret from you 

I will tell you 

Just not yet

I don’t want this to end 

I made a promise i would be here with you 

Till your years where done 

Till the papers where signed 

I promised 

I’m going to break your heart 

And my own 

You know I’m sorry 

You know i have nothing left to give 

You will understand with time

I know you do already 

But I’ve hurt you 

I’m leaving you behind 

I sit you down 

With the team of course

I tell you my secret 

You knew it already 

You saw it in my eyes 

The day has come to say goodbye 

We played our favourite songs 

And dance our last dance 

We worked well together 

But i am finely free 

Goodbye my little sous 

This is not the end 

I will see you again

As you know me better then my family 

And i know you better than yours